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Hi.
First of all I
just want to say Thank you for everything. You have taught me so much about
everything. You taught me how to love, forgive, swallow my pride. Thank you for
being so patient with me, for caring about me, and for loving me. I could have
never asked for a better guy than you. Thank you for growing with me, for all
the experiences, memories, that we had. I just want to let you know that I will
always treasure them in my heart. I’m not gonna be who I am today without you.
Second, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted. I was
going through all our text messages to each other before you asked for time
apart. I realized that I was taking you for granted. I can’t help thinking that
maybe if I didn’t turn down your invitations to go out, or maybe if I would’ve
been more concerned and sensitive when you started getting sad, this may have
never came to this. But I guess it’s too late now. Sorry for all the nonsense
arguments that I started and for being so sensitive and insensitive at the
wrong times.
I’m crying for the last seven years that we’ve been through.
I honestly can’t remember any significant time in my life that you weren’t
there. It’s gonna be so much hard to forget those last seven years when all of
my happiest moments were with you, and were because of you. I’m crying for all
the broken promises we had for each other. I’m crying for all our plans and all
our dreams that may never happen. My vision of our lives in 5, 10 and 15 years
had been so clear in my head, it’s really gonna be hard for me to let go. I’m
lifting everything up to God, because I don’t know how to go on from here.
As much as it hurts, I have to say that I love you. And I
probably always will. You are my first love, and I was so sure that you were
gonna be my last too. No matter what I do, I know I’m still going to love you. I
just want to let you know that I’ll stand by you for everything. God knows how
much I tried to fight for us.
It breaks my heart that “we” have to end. But I know, I understand, that I
have to let you go. And set you free. I just want to let you know that you
deserve every happiness you get out of what you’re looking for. Don’t ever
think yourself as a failure, because you’re just being true with yourself. Be
strong for yourself. Be brave. You deserve everything. All the happiness, love,
and affection that may happen to you.
As I write this, I’m still going over every possibility the
will see through this. And I want to say "goodbye, for now". But it’s unfair
for you to keep thinking about me. So this is just goodbye. You finally have
the chance to focus on yourself. Please take care of yourself. Be smart. I know
you’re responsible enough to not make decisions that you’ll regret.
I so, so much more to say to you, but this is all I can for now. Always pray to
God. He is the only one who can ultimately help you. I can only wish you peace
of mind and happiness.
I love you.
Goodbye.