Five shots, one broken heart, too many tears, and no names forgotten.
Today sucked.
12.4.14
6.4.14
Goodbye letter.
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Hi.
First of all I
just want to say Thank you for everything. You have taught me so much about
everything. You taught me how to love, forgive, swallow my pride. Thank you for
being so patient with me, for caring about me, and for loving me. I could have
never asked for a better guy than you. Thank you for growing with me, for all
the experiences, memories, that we had. I just want to let you know that I will
always treasure them in my heart. I’m not gonna be who I am today without you.
Second, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted. I was
going through all our text messages to each other before you asked for time
apart. I realized that I was taking you for granted. I can’t help thinking that
maybe if I didn’t turn down your invitations to go out, or maybe if I would’ve
been more concerned and sensitive when you started getting sad, this may have
never came to this. But I guess it’s too late now. Sorry for all the nonsense
arguments that I started and for being so sensitive and insensitive at the
wrong times.
I’m crying for the last seven years that we’ve been through.
I honestly can’t remember any significant time in my life that you weren’t
there. It’s gonna be so much hard to forget those last seven years when all of
my happiest moments were with you, and were because of you. I’m crying for all
the broken promises we had for each other. I’m crying for all our plans and all
our dreams that may never happen. My vision of our lives in 5, 10 and 15 years
had been so clear in my head, it’s really gonna be hard for me to let go. I’m
lifting everything up to God, because I don’t know how to go on from here.
As much as it hurts, I have to say that I love you. And I
probably always will. You are my first love, and I was so sure that you were
gonna be my last too. No matter what I do, I know I’m still going to love you. I
just want to let you know that I’ll stand by you for everything. God knows how
much I tried to fight for us.
It breaks my heart that “we” have to end. But I know, I understand, that I
have to let you go. And set you free. I just want to let you know that you
deserve every happiness you get out of what you’re looking for. Don’t ever
think yourself as a failure, because you’re just being true with yourself. Be
strong for yourself. Be brave. You deserve everything. All the happiness, love,
and affection that may happen to you.
As I write this, I’m still going over every possibility the
will see through this. And I want to say "goodbye, for now". But it’s unfair
for you to keep thinking about me. So this is just goodbye. You finally have
the chance to focus on yourself. Please take care of yourself. Be smart. I know
you’re responsible enough to not make decisions that you’ll regret.
I so, so much more to say to you, but this is all I can for now. Always pray to
God. He is the only one who can ultimately help you. I can only wish you peace
of mind and happiness.
I love you.
Goodbye.
23.3.14
.
And
so tonight I lay in the bed. Exhausted. Emotionally. Tears won’t stop.
My heart
is so full of love but completely broken.
What
have I done wrong.
I
just want you here to hold me so I can feel safe like I always do. In your
arms.
14.2.14
What happened?
Why does it feel like all of this had happened
before? I thought everything was fine; then you suddenly hit me with something
that is pretty hard to swallow. I feel like I'm losing you. I feel like were
losing each other. I'm sorry. This is not fair. I'm angry. I'm hurt. I'm
confused. But most importantly, I'm scared. Please don't take this letter as a
guilt trip to bring you back. I respect you and your feelings. I understand
that there are some things you have to go through by yourself. I know you need a
break. But I have to fight for us. Not because I'm afraid to lose you, but
because it's the only thing I know how to do.
You have my heart. As simple as it sounds, it
is also the truest thing I can admit. I love those rare moments when you wrap your hands around my
waist while we walk. You were never for public displays of affection and every
time you do that, it just sends me over the clouds. I'm pretty sure you have no
idea just how much you affect me. I love how even the corniest and most juvenile
things make you hysterical like a little kid. And how your laugh is so
contagious that everyone around you starts laughing when you do. Even just
thinking about it now brings a comical grin on my lips. Every simple thing you
do completes my day: a smile, a kiss, or even a text telling me to bundle up
because it’s extra cold outside. You are too much for me. And I love it.
I miss you. So much, my chest literally hurts.
Just like Blair's love is for Chuck, mine for you is all-consuming.
But don’t worry, I’m a strong girl.
I'll keep holding on. Patience and
Understanding: those are what I need right now. And maybe some chocolates. It's Valentines Day after all.
20.2.12
15.11.11
5years.
6 years ago, I met you. And I don't know what, but you had a certain something that made me notice you. You were my crush, secretly. Maybe because back then you were chasing someone else. Then, I don't know what happened, but I guess you noticed me too? Not even a month passed, you asked me out. I accepted. Then we tried dating, though it didn't work out because you confused your feelings for her with me. The day before valentines day, and two days before our first month, you broke up with me. My first love, my first heartbreak. Then, I promised myself that I would never let a guy enter that easily into my heart. Boy, was I wrong.
Almost a year passed and a lot of dramas happened: we became best friends and you kept on chasing her while I kept comforting you. I also kept asking myself why I stay with you when I knew I was holding on to nothing. I guess I never really got over you. 5 years ago in October, you got what you've been wishing for all year. She finally loved you back, and that time, it was real. But that time, you didn't anymore. Because that time, you said you missed your best friend more than her. Every night, you wanted to talk to your best friend on the phone instead of her. When there was a sleepover at a friend's house, you wanted to sleep near your best friend, not her. That time, you said you love me, and not her. Now, this was not my plan. I never wanted to be a "boyfriend stealer". I was really contented with my situation and wished for nothing more than you to be happy, even if it was with her. But then, I still couldn't deny that fact that I loved you, the reason I have been staying by your side. So i broke my promise. Not even a month later, 5 years ago in November 15, we became 'us'. And then my forever began.
You became my everything. The best part of my day. Your good morning text brightens my morning while your voice on the phone was my lullaby at night. Even one text from you can turn my lousy day around. You know, I loved how you never run out of things to talk about. I loved how you can think of a joke just like that to make me laugh. I loved how every time I get mad, you know just what to do so I won't get mad at you anymore. I loved how you talk about the future, our future. I loved you. And now, on our fifth anniversary together, I can say that I love you more than yesterday, and I know I will love you even more tomorrow, until forever. I can't believe how far we've have come together.
I am proud of us. We've been through hell and back, and after all that, you're still here. I admit, more than once I wanted to give up on us, but you didn't walk away. So now I want to say thanks. Thank you for always choosing to stay. You always set your pride aside when it comes to me and I am grateful for that. I know I am still learning to do that, but I know that you won't let me go. Thank you for your endless patience. Thank you for listening to everything I have to say. Because of that, I learned to be confident of my feelings, to have faith in myself, to love myself. Thank you for five years of memories with you. Memories I will treasure forever. Thank you for being the best guy a girl could ask for. Thank you for being who you are.
Finally, I just want to say again that I love you. And that I won't ever get tired of saying it. Every relationship has their own definition of forever. Some lasts for a month, a year, 2 years, then its over. For us, I know it's far from that. Our forever's not done yet. I don't think it will ever be.
Almost a year passed and a lot of dramas happened: we became best friends and you kept on chasing her while I kept comforting you. I also kept asking myself why I stay with you when I knew I was holding on to nothing. I guess I never really got over you. 5 years ago in October, you got what you've been wishing for all year. She finally loved you back, and that time, it was real. But that time, you didn't anymore. Because that time, you said you missed your best friend more than her. Every night, you wanted to talk to your best friend on the phone instead of her. When there was a sleepover at a friend's house, you wanted to sleep near your best friend, not her. That time, you said you love me, and not her. Now, this was not my plan. I never wanted to be a "boyfriend stealer". I was really contented with my situation and wished for nothing more than you to be happy, even if it was with her. But then, I still couldn't deny that fact that I loved you, the reason I have been staying by your side. So i broke my promise. Not even a month later, 5 years ago in November 15, we became 'us'. And then my forever began.
You became my everything. The best part of my day. Your good morning text brightens my morning while your voice on the phone was my lullaby at night. Even one text from you can turn my lousy day around. You know, I loved how you never run out of things to talk about. I loved how you can think of a joke just like that to make me laugh. I loved how every time I get mad, you know just what to do so I won't get mad at you anymore. I loved how you talk about the future, our future. I loved you. And now, on our fifth anniversary together, I can say that I love you more than yesterday, and I know I will love you even more tomorrow, until forever. I can't believe how far we've have come together.
I am proud of us. We've been through hell and back, and after all that, you're still here. I admit, more than once I wanted to give up on us, but you didn't walk away. So now I want to say thanks. Thank you for always choosing to stay. You always set your pride aside when it comes to me and I am grateful for that. I know I am still learning to do that, but I know that you won't let me go. Thank you for your endless patience. Thank you for listening to everything I have to say. Because of that, I learned to be confident of my feelings, to have faith in myself, to love myself. Thank you for five years of memories with you. Memories I will treasure forever. Thank you for being the best guy a girl could ask for. Thank you for being who you are.
Finally, I just want to say again that I love you. And that I won't ever get tired of saying it. Every relationship has their own definition of forever. Some lasts for a month, a year, 2 years, then its over. For us, I know it's far from that. Our forever's not done yet. I don't think it will ever be.
25.10.11
blogging again.
i am still hesitant to use this blog again. But then again, I do miss the feeling of typing out what I want to say. I am not the most outspoken person in the world, and sometimes my feelings are too strong to be just kept inside. I miss blogging. I miss having something where I can pour my heart out in words, because I know I can't do it verbally. This blog had been a space for me and my thoughts of mostly just random and senseless things. And for the past few days, my mind had been filled with those stuff. I need somewhere to put it. so, welcome again. :)
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28.5.10
Jerk.
Today, I realized that I have not been respecting myself the way I am supposed to. For a girl, anything that has to do with intimacy is a big deal. And I just realized that today. If it hadn't been for this guy who made me feel so low about myself, I'd still blindly succumb to anything he wishes or desires. So maybe I'll thank him a little. But that's it. I just had to rant about this today. Kicking me out just after he got what he wanted? Like seriously? Is that a right way to treat a girl? I felt so used. He made me felt cheap. And the worst part is, HE got mad because I was pissed. He got mad because he didn't understand why I got mad. It has always been like this every time. He just asked me why I was mad without even trying to think back on what he may have done that got me ticked. I deserve more than this.
17.3.09
-= Cherished Memories =-
For the people who had been a part of my life...
Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot. It doesn't matter if I've tagged you or not.
Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Re-post this in yours and see how many people leave a memory about you. =)
Please share the memories that we had together.. =)
Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot. It doesn't matter if I've tagged you or not.
Don't send a message, leave a comment on here. Re-post this in yours and see how many people leave a memory about you. =)
Please share the memories that we had together.. =)
20.9.08
grrr.
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oh I HAVE A LIFE, that's why i don't go messaging people i don't know saying stuff about broken hearts or whatever. unlike you. anyways, i don't even remember saying anything about "knowing everything about life", so what the hell are you squabbling about? or you just can't say anything smart? so yeah, ok then, good for you. I'll get a life - even though I already have one - and you try to get one too. then maybe you won't message me any more. i really hope so. so good riddance. have a nice life. and if you still can't get one, just go burn in hell. i don't need people like you.
oh I HAVE A LIFE, that's why i don't go messaging people i don't know saying stuff about broken hearts or whatever. unlike you. anyways, i don't even remember saying anything about "knowing everything about life", so what the hell are you squabbling about? or you just can't say anything smart? so yeah, ok then, good for you. I'll get a life - even though I already have one - and you try to get one too. then maybe you won't message me any more. i really hope so. so good riddance. have a nice life. and if you still can't get one, just go burn in hell. i don't need people like you.
2.8.08
Killing Boredom.
with a survey.. ;)
here it goes..
~
ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
x okay, ready? lol.. i was part of the intramural on dodge ball 2 years ago, then one of the balls went under the bleachers so i went to get it.. i was crawling then i hit my knee with something hard.. it didn't hurt that much so i ignored it.. when i stood up, my friends noticed my knee was bleeding, really bleeding.. i looked down and i saw it was cut open..when i tried to bend it slightly i could see my flesh..i had to get stitches.. haha..
WHAT IS ON THE WALL IN YOUR ROOM?
x not much stuff.. yet.. still in the process of settling into our new house.. i'll decorate it soon..
HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
x sleeepy... and boooored..
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
x nothing.. but i want to listen to "Save Me" by Josh
DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
x I think it's around 4am
WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
x 'breaking dawn'.. i want to buy... =(
WHAT DO YOU MISS?
x karen.. awwwwwwwwwwwww... lol..
WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
x cheesedogs =)
WHAT ARE YOU CONSIDERED [PREP,GOTHIC,JOCK,ETC??]]
x kinda preppy, i think.
DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
x Not really.
THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
x the girls, and han..
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
x Glo!
WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
x Short and and a little spiky.
COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
x coffee!
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
x Hawaiian pizza w/ extra cheese..
IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x Thai express
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU MAD?
x no comment. lol.
DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
x ahuh.. too much in one..a little in another, and a bit in still another.. haha..
WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE YOU?
x hmm..i really don't know, a toy?
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
x i like everyone.. lol..
FAVORITE CLOTHES?
x my smiley faced shirt and my big heart shirt..
WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS TAKEN?
x I wouldn't want to.
WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
x To tell them every single day in word. And show them as much as you can..
SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
x Fif-teen.. =)
WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
x han, of course..
WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
x people who says they're not interested then hangs up the phone.. we're not doing a freaking survey, you know!
YOUR WEAKNESSES?
x chocolateee
FIRST JOB?
x mcdonalds! just like everybody else.. LOL..
EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
x no..
WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLED THIS?
x uh..making money..haha...im working..haha..
IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x hmmm..
WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
x because im really sleepy and bored.. it gets me thinking so it keeps me awake...
WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
x not to be conceited or anything.. most people to compliment me said i look alike with some actress... its different everytime..haha..
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
x wouldn't really care..i don't drink so whatever..
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
x i just had my birthday, it was exactly what i wanted.. =)
HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
x someday, maybe 3.. =)
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
x i don't know, i haven't heard that story yet from my parents..haha..
DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
x not really..i did on airplanes before..haha..
WHICH FINGER(S) IS YOUR FAVORITE?
x my right pinky..
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
x no comment..
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
x it's okay.. could do better.. lol..
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and it's only 9:50am..the time is freaking slow...
oh yeah.. belated to Harry and JK! =)
here it goes..
~
ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
x okay, ready? lol.. i was part of the intramural on dodge ball 2 years ago, then one of the balls went under the bleachers so i went to get it.. i was crawling then i hit my knee with something hard.. it didn't hurt that much so i ignored it.. when i stood up, my friends noticed my knee was bleeding, really bleeding.. i looked down and i saw it was cut open..when i tried to bend it slightly i could see my flesh..i had to get stitches.. haha..
WHAT IS ON THE WALL IN YOUR ROOM?
x not much stuff.. yet.. still in the process of settling into our new house.. i'll decorate it soon..
HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
x sleeepy... and boooored..
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
x nothing.. but i want to listen to "Save Me" by Josh
DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
x I think it's around 4am
WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
x 'breaking dawn'.. i want to buy... =(
WHAT DO YOU MISS?
x karen.. awwwwwwwwwwwww... lol..
WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
x cheesedogs =)
WHAT ARE YOU CONSIDERED [PREP,GOTHIC,JOCK,ETC??]]
x kinda preppy, i think.
DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
x Not really.
THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
x the girls, and han..
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
x Glo!
WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
x Short and and a little spiky.
COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
x coffee!
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
x Hawaiian pizza w/ extra cheese..
IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x Thai express
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU MAD?
x no comment. lol.
DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
x ahuh.. too much in one..a little in another, and a bit in still another.. haha..
WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE YOU?
x hmm..i really don't know, a toy?
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
x i like everyone.. lol..
FAVORITE CLOTHES?
x my smiley faced shirt and my big heart shirt..
WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS TAKEN?
x I wouldn't want to.
WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
x To tell them every single day in word. And show them as much as you can..
SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
x Fif-teen.. =)
WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
x han, of course..
WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
x people who says they're not interested then hangs up the phone.. we're not doing a freaking survey, you know!
YOUR WEAKNESSES?
x chocolateee
FIRST JOB?
x mcdonalds! just like everybody else.. LOL..
EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
x no..
WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLED THIS?
x uh..making money..haha...im working..haha..
IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x hmmm..
WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
x because im really sleepy and bored.. it gets me thinking so it keeps me awake...
WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
x not to be conceited or anything.. most people to compliment me said i look alike with some actress... its different everytime..haha..
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
x wouldn't really care..i don't drink so whatever..
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
x i just had my birthday, it was exactly what i wanted.. =)
HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
x someday, maybe 3.. =)
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
x i don't know, i haven't heard that story yet from my parents..haha..
DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
x not really..i did on airplanes before..haha..
WHICH FINGER(S) IS YOUR FAVORITE?
x my right pinky..
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
x no comment..
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
x it's okay.. could do better.. lol..
~
and it's only 9:50am..the time is freaking slow...
oh yeah.. belated to Harry and JK! =)
7.7.08
Seriously.
Special mention to BF.
Thanks for the big help on Saturday night. you were such a huge help.. and i didn't think it was possible to carry all those boxes without your truck.
thanks for going to all that trouble (again, you didn't have to do it, but Thank you) Super thank you po.. =)
~
now i know i don't have the right to post this because of the whole Saturday night thing, but it was just one of those days that you got me really ticked off and i just had to let you know. Sorry. haha.
Scene: Canada day at the Forks, open parking lot - 4th level, approx 10:45pm, while waiting for the fireworks to start, watching a music concert on the field below.
Me (shivering against the chilly wind):.......
(not saying anything because doesn't really want to bother "guy" and maybe he'll have a clue of what's going on because of the fact that i was shivering obviously beside him. )
Sweet guy response: puts arm around you.
Not-so-sweet guy/shy guy/typical guy response: lends you his jacket and puts it around you.
BF's response: "are you cold?.... go inside the car, then!"
Me: ...........
Seriously.
oh well, we still enjoyed the rest of the night watching fireworks which weren't as half as good as it was in Red Rier Ex. Haha.. so much for the wait. We were there since 7 pm just to see the fireworks and it didn't even thrill me.. just scared the hell out of Choco (my dog).. haha.
peace boyfriend.
<3u br="">
Thanks for the big help on Saturday night. you were such a huge help.. and i didn't think it was possible to carry all those boxes without your truck.
thanks for going to all that trouble (again, you didn't have to do it, but Thank you) Super thank you po.. =)
~
now i know i don't have the right to post this because of the whole Saturday night thing, but it was just one of those days that you got me really ticked off and i just had to let you know. Sorry. haha.
Scene: Canada day at the Forks, open parking lot - 4th level, approx 10:45pm, while waiting for the fireworks to start, watching a music concert on the field below.
Me (shivering against the chilly wind):.......
(not saying anything because doesn't really want to bother "guy" and maybe he'll have a clue of what's going on because of the fact that i was shivering obviously beside him. )
Sweet guy response: puts arm around you.
Not-so-sweet guy/shy guy/typical guy response: lends you his jacket and puts it around you.
BF's response: "are you cold?.... go inside the car, then!"
Me: ...........
Seriously.
oh well, we still enjoyed the rest of the night watching fireworks which weren't as half as good as it was in Red Rier Ex. Haha.. so much for the wait. We were there since 7 pm just to see the fireworks and it didn't even thrill me.. just scared the hell out of Choco (my dog).. haha.
peace boyfriend.
<3u br="">
19.6.08
Ohio!
"kapag iniwan mo ako dun, ihahagis kita sa Fireball."
i love you too po.. ^-^
Uber excited for the EX! No work si Ces so tuloy na tuloy na sa Sunday! Even han, who doesn't like those heart-stopping rides can't wait and even threatened me na ihahagis ako sa fireball kapag iniwan ko siya. Gulay han, grow up. you're not a little kid. lol. i love you. =) Anyways, girls we have a problem. How are we all getting there? Hindi pa daw gawa ung car ni Guia so pano na. We can squeeze in 3 more in han's car but including Sarah and Lorlen, if Kuya R's not coming, there'll still be three people without rides.? Wag naman po sana na hindi tayo matuloy cause of this. Ano, any solutions? comments? suggestions? violent reactions? *crossed fingers*
anyway, waiting for the last 2 episodes of zettai kareshi. it's just so.. sfijawonvsnldlsfja (again).. watch and you'll know what I'm babbling about.
oh yeah, Japanese is getting on my system. like, i hear a completely normal world and it registers to me as a Japanese term. it was last week when BJ was saying random US States - don't ask me why he's doing that, i wouldn't know - and he keeps passing the kitchen while i was doing the dishes. "OHIO!" he shouted. Then i said, "it's kunichiwa now, morning's over." i actually thought that it's Ohayou as in, 'Good morning' in Japanese. And there's another one when I was looking at Trisha's album 'Friday'. i was reading the captions and i came across this word: "one". And i read it as o-ne as in onee-chan with a wrong spelling. It's not until i moved to the next picture that i realized that the caption actually says one as in the number. Marami pa, i just can't remember ung iba. But yeah, that is so sad, yet funny at the same time.
Whatever, I'm tired.
i love you too po.. ^-^
Uber excited for the EX! No work si Ces so tuloy na tuloy na sa Sunday! Even han, who doesn't like those heart-stopping rides can't wait and even threatened me na ihahagis ako sa fireball kapag iniwan ko siya. Gulay han, grow up. you're not a little kid. lol. i love you. =) Anyways, girls we have a problem. How are we all getting there? Hindi pa daw gawa ung car ni Guia so pano na. We can squeeze in 3 more in han's car but including Sarah and Lorlen, if Kuya R's not coming, there'll still be three people without rides.? Wag naman po sana na hindi tayo matuloy cause of this. Ano, any solutions? comments? suggestions? violent reactions? *crossed fingers*
anyway, waiting for the last 2 episodes of zettai kareshi. it's just so.. sfijawonvsnldlsfja (again).. watch and you'll know what I'm babbling about.
oh yeah, Japanese is getting on my system. like, i hear a completely normal world and it registers to me as a Japanese term. it was last week when BJ was saying random US States - don't ask me why he's doing that, i wouldn't know - and he keeps passing the kitchen while i was doing the dishes. "OHIO!" he shouted. Then i said, "it's kunichiwa now, morning's over." i actually thought that it's Ohayou as in, 'Good morning' in Japanese. And there's another one when I was looking at Trisha's album 'Friday'. i was reading the captions and i came across this word: "one". And i read it as o-ne as in onee-chan with a wrong spelling. It's not until i moved to the next picture that i realized that the caption actually says one as in the number. Marami pa, i just can't remember ung iba. But yeah, that is so sad, yet funny at the same time.
Whatever, I'm tired.
5.6.08
Take Note 2008..
..was a blast!
I loved all the numbers and performances. Everyone was great, and even though we were the only dance group that didn't do hip hop, we got so much cheering from the audience. oh well.
Hey karen, remember when we were planning tostalk, i mean, visit, kibbumie, donghae-ya, heenim, and hyunnie in Seoul next year? oh and other "shupah chuni-or" members too? I want to go in 2012 instead... when Hallyuwood theme park opens!!!
The Hallyuwood theme park is being built on a 990,000 square meters site in Gyeonggi Province. The Project will be done by 2012!!!
The theme park will house studios where Korean dramas and films are made, entertainment facilities, a museum, shops, Korean cooking classes and restaurants!
and the ambassador of the theme park???
*drums*
Jackie Chan! (three cheers for Chan! "hip, hip, hooray!")
so who needs Disneyland when you got a world full of Kpop coming in 4 years and counting... (haha, of course i still want to go to Disneyworld/Disneyland. My han promised to take me there, and he better keep it.)
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Zettai Kareshi Ep 07.. is the best episode yet.. my favorite one at the moment.. i seriously cried. My mom was so laughing at me because she saw me crying in front of my laptop. Haha. It's really shjewogheohirsywevjpeqpe.. yeah, that.
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Harry potter 6 leaked snapshots got leaked! lol. Gosh, i'm getting all fidgety again.. I can't wait for the movie now. Now that the book series is done, I only have the movies to look forward too.. Gosh, Daniel's hair is gonna be same as in POA so i'm even more excited.. haha..
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Happy advanced Birthday Joem! It's your birthday tomorrow and you're broke! Haha! Peace! (:
I loved all the numbers and performances. Everyone was great, and even though we were the only dance group that didn't do hip hop, we got so much cheering from the audience. oh well.
Hey karen, remember when we were planning to
The Hallyuwood theme park is being built on a 990,000 square meters site in Gyeonggi Province. The Project will be done by 2012!!!
The theme park will house studios where Korean dramas and films are made, entertainment facilities, a museum, shops, Korean cooking classes and restaurants!
and the ambassador of the theme park???
*drums*
Jackie Chan! (three cheers for Chan! "hip, hip, hooray!")
so who needs Disneyland when you got a world full of Kpop coming in 4 years and counting... (haha, of course i still want to go to Disneyworld/Disneyland. My han promised to take me there, and he better keep it.)
~
Zettai Kareshi Ep 07.. is the best episode yet.. my favorite one at the moment.. i seriously cried. My mom was so laughing at me because she saw me crying in front of my laptop. Haha. It's really shjewogheohirsywevjpeqpe.. yeah, that.
~
Harry potter 6 leaked snapshots got leaked! lol. Gosh, i'm getting all fidgety again.. I can't wait for the movie now. Now that the book series is done, I only have the movies to look forward too.. Gosh, Daniel's hair is gonna be same as in POA so i'm even more excited.. haha..
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Happy advanced Birthday Joem! It's your birthday tomorrow and you're broke! Haha! Peace! (:
21.5.08
uhmmm..
can't think of a proper title..
oh well, as i've been busy as hell, i had no time to update my oh-so-un-swayed blog, or site. Haha. Luckily – or need i say, irresponsibly – i managed to squeeze this random post between school work and what-nots.
I know i should be doing my history and calculus homework by now. I seriously need to work on calculus cause freaking Gordon gave us a freaking looong homework, due tomorrow! What did he think we are? A graphmatica program in his computer? Most of our class has a 60+ average in his class, just passing. So much for taking Accel. Oh well, At least some of the extracurricular stuff’s out of the question and I don’t have to worry about SMW for now. Dance festival’s over so i could finally sleep in Monday and Wednesday mornings when before i had to wake up at 6, which most times turns to 6:30, to catch my uber early bus to be on time for SMW rehearsal.
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I’m really excited for Saturday. Or is it Friday? Mommy Shayne, when’s karaoke night? I’m uber excited!!! Let’s play drums again, and the tambourine. Oops. I think i said too much. Lol. Anyways, Karen and I are sooo jamming again. And this time we won’t forget Dahl Peng Ee and you still wouldn’t understand what we’re singing! Ha! Oh yeah, Lei’s been practicing his piece - at least i think so...
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Absolute Boyfriend Ep 5 is out!!! Die, Soshi, Die! You’re a good for nothing nuisance with a funny face and messy hair. You can’t even sell a freaking cream puff and you had to hurt Night! Of all people – or robots – why Night!!! And Riiko, you insensitive temp, what the heck is your problem? How can you just disregard and push away Night like that?
waaah...I sure hope the next episodes weren't as hurtful.. Lol..
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Connie Talbot rocks!
oh well, as i've been busy as hell, i had no time to update my oh-so-un-swayed blog, or site. Haha. Luckily – or need i say, irresponsibly – i managed to squeeze this random post between school work and what-nots.
I know i should be doing my history and calculus homework by now. I seriously need to work on calculus cause freaking Gordon gave us a freaking looong homework, due tomorrow! What did he think we are? A graphmatica program in his computer? Most of our class has a 60+ average in his class, just passing. So much for taking Accel. Oh well, At least some of the extracurricular stuff’s out of the question and I don’t have to worry about SMW for now. Dance festival’s over so i could finally sleep in Monday and Wednesday mornings when before i had to wake up at 6, which most times turns to 6:30, to catch my uber early bus to be on time for SMW rehearsal.
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I’m really excited for Saturday. Or is it Friday? Mommy Shayne, when’s karaoke night? I’m uber excited!!! Let’s play drums again, and the tambourine. Oops. I think i said too much. Lol. Anyways, Karen and I are sooo jamming again. And this time we won’t forget Dahl Peng Ee and you still wouldn’t understand what we’re singing! Ha! Oh yeah, Lei’s been practicing his piece - at least i think so...
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Absolute Boyfriend Ep 5 is out!!! Die, Soshi, Die! You’re a good for nothing nuisance with a funny face and messy hair. You can’t even sell a freaking cream puff and you had to hurt Night! Of all people – or robots – why Night!!! And Riiko, you insensitive temp, what the heck is your problem? How can you just disregard and push away Night like that?
waaah...I sure hope the next episodes weren't as hurtful.. Lol..
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Connie Talbot rocks!
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I should probably start my Calc homework... *walks away*
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- Oh my God, this is so random...
5.4.08
Party, Party
Haha. Yesternight was a blast.
Mommy, Daddy, thanks for the laptop! super gosh!! =)
Karen, waah! ang cute nung baboy!
Anjel, i love the scrapbook. Super touched ako sa message..
Ardley and Shayne, i already used up your gift! haha, Starbucks addict! lol..
Jehn, tamang tama ung pagbigay mu, ubos na lotion ko.. =p
Ces! ung gift mo, hindi ko un isusuot! Lol!!
Lorlen, Sarah, ang cute nung bag, excited na ako mag-summer. =)
Han ku, you know i soo love your gift. Also tell tita na gusto ni mommy ung bag, pero di ko bibigay kac gusto ko din sya... ^-^
Kuya, Regalo ko!!!!!!!!!!! Lol..
dun sa iba pang gifts, thank you po.. psensya na ndi ko kau nabanggit,..on the spot eh.. haha..
grabe super saya kagabi.. i didn't expect that many guests.. too much people (lol).. sabi ni mommy bawal ang bar, pero ang init sa basement.. para din taung nagbar... =)
basta, super saya talaga..
Thank you po for everything, sa lahat lahat. Mommy, Daddy, i can't thank you enough sa mga ginawa nyo para sa kin.. I don't know where would i be if you've not been there to support me. You've molded me into the person I am right now. You're the best parents anyone could ever have. I know I\ve used that line for like a thousand times before but I never meant it the way I mean it right now (and that's not just because of the laptop.. =) Mommy, thank you so much or everything. I know only few people consider their mom as a friend, and I'm glad we are. You're the greatest best friend I had, and would still be the greatest I could ever have. You would never have to worry missing anything about my life, because you will always know what's happening and I will always tell you everything. Daddy, i love you so much. I know you know that. I know you've never watched an episode of 8 simple rules, but you're just like the Bridget, Kerry, and Rory's dad. I know we always say na "para kayong timang", or "daddy, tumigil nga kayo", or something like that, but i bet also a few people can treat their fathers like that. Know why, Because they fear them. We tell that to you because we aren't scared that you'd be mad because we know you can take an insult for a joke. You're so kenkoy nga eh. Not many dads are like that, that's why you're one of a kind. That's why you're the best.
Haha, super emote..
Han ku, sau, super thank you talaga.. Kasi naman You're so supportive, like super... From invitations, to giveaways, the special presentation, and pag decorate ng bahay, nandun ka.. (and Karen, too.. Kamsahamnida Karen! Saranghae!) Grabe, i love you soo much! Pasensya na, I can't think of anything to say.. Eh kac thank you lang ung nasa utak ko eh.. haha..basta, thank you..
ayun thank you sa lahat.. wala na talga akong masabi..
Mommy, Daddy, thanks for the laptop! super gosh!! =)
Karen, waah! ang cute nung baboy!
Anjel, i love the scrapbook. Super touched ako sa message..
Ardley and Shayne, i already used up your gift! haha, Starbucks addict! lol..
Jehn, tamang tama ung pagbigay mu, ubos na lotion ko.. =p
Ces! ung gift mo, hindi ko un isusuot! Lol!!
Lorlen, Sarah, ang cute nung bag, excited na ako mag-summer. =)
Han ku, you know i soo love your gift. Also tell tita na gusto ni mommy ung bag, pero di ko bibigay kac gusto ko din sya... ^-^
Kuya, Regalo ko!!!!!!!!!!! Lol..
dun sa iba pang gifts, thank you po.. psensya na ndi ko kau nabanggit,..on the spot eh.. haha..
grabe super saya kagabi.. i didn't expect that many guests.. too much people (lol).. sabi ni mommy bawal ang bar, pero ang init sa basement.. para din taung nagbar... =)
basta, super saya talaga..
Thank you po for everything, sa lahat lahat. Mommy, Daddy, i can't thank you enough sa mga ginawa nyo para sa kin.. I don't know where would i be if you've not been there to support me. You've molded me into the person I am right now. You're the best parents anyone could ever have. I know I\ve used that line for like a thousand times before but I never meant it the way I mean it right now (and that's not just because of the laptop.. =) Mommy, thank you so much or everything. I know only few people consider their mom as a friend, and I'm glad we are. You're the greatest best friend I had, and would still be the greatest I could ever have. You would never have to worry missing anything about my life, because you will always know what's happening and I will always tell you everything. Daddy, i love you so much. I know you know that. I know you've never watched an episode of 8 simple rules, but you're just like the Bridget, Kerry, and Rory's dad. I know we always say na "para kayong timang", or "daddy, tumigil nga kayo", or something like that, but i bet also a few people can treat their fathers like that. Know why, Because they fear them. We tell that to you because we aren't scared that you'd be mad because we know you can take an insult for a joke. You're so kenkoy nga eh. Not many dads are like that, that's why you're one of a kind. That's why you're the best.
Haha, super emote..
Han ku, sau, super thank you talaga.. Kasi naman You're so supportive, like super... From invitations, to giveaways, the special presentation, and pag decorate ng bahay, nandun ka.. (and Karen, too.. Kamsahamnida Karen! Saranghae!) Grabe, i love you soo much! Pasensya na, I can't think of anything to say.. Eh kac thank you lang ung nasa utak ko eh.. haha..basta, thank you..
ayun thank you sa lahat.. wala na talga akong masabi..
15.11.07
Letter for Him
*warning: contains extreme mushiness*
=D
Hey by,
haha. i hope you're reading this. not.
happy anniversary. wow... it's been a year, ei? it's funny how days pasess by so fast, yet everyday day i've spent with you feels like forever. haha. don't gag now. i have every right to be cheesy and mushy, ok han? it's our annivesary after all. anyways, i just want to thank you for everything, EVERY LITTLE THING, that you have done...
For being the most patient guy on Earth...
For being uber understanding...
For forgiving every fault i make...
For making me laugh and being super duper kulit...
For listening to my stories, no matter how senseless they are...
For melting my heart with your sweetness...
For sharing your dreams and including 'us' in them...
For loving me ocean deep...
For just being you...
and for the way I am when I'm with you...
over sentimental much? hehe. Seriously though, it's all sincere and genuine. I've waited so long for you before. But you were damn well worth that wait. Now, i'm happy I'm with you. You're mine. I'm yours. And I'm not sharing. :) You showed me extraordinary love and care. And you did it in your own 'enx' way. It's been a year. We still have a long way to go. But I know, we'll stay beyond months, by... Cause a lifetime with you is what I have in mind. I heart you and I definitely always will. =D
Happy Anniversary <333
mwaaahhhhhh..........
=D
Hey by,
haha. i hope you're reading this. not.
happy anniversary. wow... it's been a year, ei? it's funny how days pasess by so fast, yet everyday day i've spent with you feels like forever. haha. don't gag now. i have every right to be cheesy and mushy, ok han? it's our annivesary after all. anyways, i just want to thank you for everything, EVERY LITTLE THING, that you have done...
For being the most patient guy on Earth...
For being uber understanding...
For forgiving every fault i make...
For making me laugh and being super duper kulit...
For listening to my stories, no matter how senseless they are...
For melting my heart with your sweetness...
For sharing your dreams and including 'us' in them...
For loving me ocean deep...
For just being you...
and for the way I am when I'm with you...
over sentimental much? hehe. Seriously though, it's all sincere and genuine. I've waited so long for you before. But you were damn well worth that wait. Now, i'm happy I'm with you. You're mine. I'm yours. And I'm not sharing. :) You showed me extraordinary love and care. And you did it in your own 'enx' way. It's been a year. We still have a long way to go. But I know, we'll stay beyond months, by... Cause a lifetime with you is what I have in mind. I heart you and I definitely always will. =D
Happy Anniversary <333
mwaaahhhhhh..........
11.7.07
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
grabe 'tong movie na 'to..
wala akong masabi..
we just watched the midnight show at Sivler City for HP OotP, and all I have to say is.. I LOVED IT..
syempre HP eh.. hehe..
kahit madaming kulang na scenes at pangyayari, na-impress ako sa pagiimprovise nung director. I know naman na di kailangan lahat ng details nandun eh. Syempre kulang na kulang sa oras kung isasama every detail nun. Ang galing din ng foreshadowing. Napapansin ko lang siguro ung mga un kac alam ko na kung anong mangyayari..hehe.. Sayang nga lang talga, marami di pinakita..
1. Wala c Mrs. Black.
2. Di nakita ung St. Mungo's
3. Pati ung parents ni Neville, wala.
4. Si Cho ung naging dahilan nung pagkahuli sa DA.
5. Di pinakitang naging prefect sila Ron.
6. Wala ung date ni Cho at Harry.
oh wells.. kahit na.. basta, I loved it. Super talaga. Di ko alam na magiging ganito ako kaadik sa isang bagay. Iba kac ang kahulugan ng Harry Potter sa kin. Isa to sa naging matibay na pundasyon ng bestfriendships namin nila Nica at Abbychu. Tapos kasama na sila sa araw-araw na pagbisita ko sa internet. Walang isang araw na hindi ako pumupunta sa mugglenet para magpakaadik. Para bang sabay kami lumaki nila Harry. Haay, OA, alam ko.. Pero ganun talaga pag ganun ang passion mo sa isang bagay. Kaya tuloy parang ayaw ko mag tapos ung Hp eh..
wala nang aabangan taon taon sa bagong movie or libro. Wala na akong hahanapin na bagong news tungkol kay daniel, emma at rupert. Wala na.
haay, padrama effect.. dala nung kapeng binili ko sa tim hortons.. c anjel kac eh..lolz.. =D
wala akong masabi..
we just watched the midnight show at Sivler City for HP OotP, and all I have to say is.. I LOVED IT..
syempre HP eh.. hehe..
kahit madaming kulang na scenes at pangyayari, na-impress ako sa pagiimprovise nung director. I know naman na di kailangan lahat ng details nandun eh. Syempre kulang na kulang sa oras kung isasama every detail nun. Ang galing din ng foreshadowing. Napapansin ko lang siguro ung mga un kac alam ko na kung anong mangyayari..hehe.. Sayang nga lang talga, marami di pinakita..
1. Wala c Mrs. Black.
2. Di nakita ung St. Mungo's
3. Pati ung parents ni Neville, wala.
4. Si Cho ung naging dahilan nung pagkahuli sa DA.
5. Di pinakitang naging prefect sila Ron.
6. Wala ung date ni Cho at Harry.
oh wells.. kahit na.. basta, I loved it. Super talaga. Di ko alam na magiging ganito ako kaadik sa isang bagay. Iba kac ang kahulugan ng Harry Potter sa kin. Isa to sa naging matibay na pundasyon ng bestfriendships namin nila Nica at Abbychu. Tapos kasama na sila sa araw-araw na pagbisita ko sa internet. Walang isang araw na hindi ako pumupunta sa mugglenet para magpakaadik. Para bang sabay kami lumaki nila Harry. Haay, OA, alam ko.. Pero ganun talaga pag ganun ang passion mo sa isang bagay. Kaya tuloy parang ayaw ko mag tapos ung Hp eh..
wala nang aabangan taon taon sa bagong movie or libro. Wala na akong hahanapin na bagong news tungkol kay daniel, emma at rupert. Wala na.
haay, padrama effect.. dala nung kapeng binili ko sa tim hortons.. c anjel kac eh..lolz.. =D
22.6.07
Just Can't Say
wala lang. Mga bagay na gusto kong sabihin. Kaso walang makarinig. Baka maiparating ko lang dito. LOLZ.
Una sa lahat,
1. Bakit gising pa ako? 2:03 am na kaya.
2. Fiance, kuya?! Astig. (alam ko, walang nakakarelate. inside joke namin ng sarili ko, at ni kuya. kung sino man si kuya. LOLZ.)
3. Si Pram ang pinakamabangong "pirated" na nakilala ko. Wala lang. Naisip ko lang kanina. Ang bangis kasi ng halimuyak nung isang kawork ko eh. No offense.
4. I understand.
5. Actually, I DON'T.
6. 21 nights na lang talaga. Andyan na ang most anticipated movie of the year ko. Gosh!
7. 31 nights na lang. Andyan na ang most anticipated book of the year ko. Gosh-ness!
8. Ang cute talaga, Anjel! As in!
Ang huli sa lahat,
9. Hindi nagbebenta ng sushi ang Mcdo. Kaya tandaan: WALANG SUSHI SA MCDONALD'S. GETS?!
10. Wala ding ice capp sa mcdo. Di ko alam kung nang-aasar lang kayo o wala talaga kayong kamalay malay sa ikot ng mundo. Bahala kayo.
Anyways, ayun lang. Wala na akong masabi eh.
Una sa lahat,
1. Bakit gising pa ako? 2:03 am na kaya.
2. Fiance, kuya?! Astig. (alam ko, walang nakakarelate. inside joke namin ng sarili ko, at ni kuya. kung sino man si kuya. LOLZ.)
3. Si Pram ang pinakamabangong "pirated" na nakilala ko. Wala lang. Naisip ko lang kanina. Ang bangis kasi ng halimuyak nung isang kawork ko eh. No offense.
4. I understand.
5. Actually, I DON'T.
6. 21 nights na lang talaga. Andyan na ang most anticipated movie of the year ko. Gosh!
7. 31 nights na lang. Andyan na ang most anticipated book of the year ko. Gosh-ness!
8. Ang cute talaga, Anjel! As in!
Ang huli sa lahat,
9. Hindi nagbebenta ng sushi ang Mcdo. Kaya tandaan: WALANG SUSHI SA MCDONALD'S. GETS?!
10. Wala ding ice capp sa mcdo. Di ko alam kung nang-aasar lang kayo o wala talaga kayong kamalay malay sa ikot ng mundo. Bahala kayo.
Anyways, ayun lang. Wala na akong masabi eh.
27.5.07
Blog entry
what if Belle never loved Beast?
Ariel stayed a mermaid?
cinderella never forgot her slipper?
Snow White never ate her apple?
What if i never met you?
life is not a fairytale but having you is worth more than any magic Disney has to offer..
Ariel stayed a mermaid?
cinderella never forgot her slipper?
Snow White never ate her apple?
What if i never met you?
life is not a fairytale but having you is worth more than any magic Disney has to offer..
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