28.5.10

Jerk.

Today, I realized that I have not been respecting myself the way I am supposed to. For a girl, anything that has to do with intimacy is a big deal. And I just realized that today. If it hadn't been for this guy who made me feel so low about myself, I'd still blindly succumb to anything he wishes or desires. So maybe I'll thank him a little. But that's it. I just had to rant about this today. Kicking me out just after he got what he wanted? Like seriously? Is that a right way to treat a girl? I felt so used. He made me felt cheap. And the worst part is, HE got mad because I was pissed. He got mad because he didn't understand why I got mad. It has always been like this every time. He just asked me why I was mad without even trying to think back on what he may have done that got me ticked. I deserve more than this.